Day 11: I want to be a full-time wife.

Today, Bob and I fought for the first time.

Or maybe it’s not really a fight, but more of a misunderstanding.

I told Bob that I asked my Lola not to go here anymore, that I can survive the household chores, and basically, a helper is no longer needed.

He told me that it’s not possible for us not to hire a helper, that we need one because of the lifestyle that we have, etc etc. He also told me that he doesn’t want me to get tired because of the household chores, I took that as a sweet gesture from him but his next words hit me below the belt…

“Isa pa, ayokong pag may ginagawa ako eh bigla mo ko tatawagin pag meron kang di kayang gawin mag-isa.”

I know, I’m generally a lazy person. I really don’t do household chores. I always say that it’s because I grew up with my Papa doing basically everything for us. Our Papa does the household chores and he spoils us everytime. The one time that I ironed my own clothes, Papa immediately scrutinized my ironing and had it re-ironed.

But I just love what I’m doing now. I love waking up early in the morning and fixing things. I don’t know where that came from, it’s just that I enjoy those hours, it’s like an alone time for me, I love doing it and I love it all the more coz I’m doing it for him.

I feel like a full-time wife.

I want to take care of him and I know this is just a preparation to our building a family together. I can’t be lazy forever. I can’t be “bawal mapagod” all the time.

I need this.